20mg Escitalopram Oxalate and Alcohol
by Bella Aase
I'm in this dream
Sitting unbothered on an unstable wooden
chair in any pharmacy
Someone has screwed open my cranium
Drill cut a circular lid, osseous jar
Scooping up my mind like strawberry Jell-O
Wriggling on a rusted silver spoon
I watch the featureless stranger take a bite
Drop the spoon in my skull bowl with a numb plink
and say: Tastes bitter.
I'm lying half awake
Folded and confused in a darkened
Apartment, iodine streetlight aura
Cut dull through night blinds and blurry
Pupils, dizzy, my brain rusted to pieces and
Lucid, I watch the dream again, less vivid,
My mouth dropped ajar and numb, not screaming
I watch bone pry open, pink flesh tasted
I'm dead, probably, as in
I died, and I don't really care
Drop the floating thought with a metallic clatter
and listen: I don't care.
Bella Aase (she/they) is a recovering perfectionist with Bipolar II disorder. She is a graduate student in the MFA creative writing program at Hamline University and has a Substack called Wax and Sonder. Their work has appeared in Serotonin and This Was 2020. Bella lives in Minneapolis, Minnesota with her husband, John, who is also a writer.
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